I really want to believe that benevolent celestial beings look out for us. It's a comforting thought in an increasingly bizarre world. But the idea seems so irrational that I'm embarrassed to admit this longing, even to myself. It's like holding out hope that I'll hear flying reindeer land on the roof at the close … Continue reading at the crossroads
june
She was like June, sunny with flowers to cover daffodil husks no one would see.
a look in the mirror
I ran late to my dance troupe rehearsal this evening and was impatient to get to the studio because of it. So, while the car in front of me was traveling at a perfectly reasonable rate, I decided to pass. While passing, the vehicle began matching my speed, accelerating right along with me. "What a … Continue reading a look in the mirror
2018-ish resolutions progress
This will be quick. Writing a blog post every day is the only resolution I've come close to satisfying. I didn't anticipate the enormous time suck of writing a blog. At least not the way I've gone about it. I'm not going to stop doing it but I do need to rethink my approach. As … Continue reading 2018-ish resolutions progress
you say tornado, i say get thee to the basement
It's 1am and I'm hunkered down in the basement of my home. A few minutes ago, our mobile phone alarms sounded off before blasting out the news of a tornado warning in our area. This was quickly followed by another round of alarms and news of a flash flood warning in effect for our area. … Continue reading you say tornado, i say get thee to the basement
reminder to myself
It's so easy to fall into despair when watching the news. I don't know if it's the news' propensity to focus on doom and gloom or my tendency to ruminate over negativity that plunges me into dark places. Probably an unfortunate combination of the two. Either way, I end up scared, angry, or dispirited and diving … Continue reading reminder to myself
the decision trap
She desperately wanted to make different decisions. She was smart enough to know that the real treasure lies beyond superficial trappings but not strong enough to avoid the trap.
living under shawarma law
My call with the help desk was wrapping up. Noting a southern accent, I asked the young man what part of the country he lived in. "Mississippi." He asked where I lived. "In Michigan. Just outside Detroit in a suburb called Dearborn." I could almost hear him gasp. "I hear y'all live under Sharia law … Continue reading living under shawarma law
movie time: deadpool 2
I'm normally not into superhero movies because they're violent gore-fests. But the first Deadpool movie had so much humor wrapped around the gore that I actually found myself enjoying the violence. This gave me cause for concern. Could humor be used as a sort of "gateway drug" to violence. I worried that I was somehow … Continue reading movie time: deadpool 2
an ode to forgetting
The panic comes unbidden, triggered by random things: lightbulbs flickering, a stalling engine, the memory of a dream no longer achievable. It grabs at my chest with a cold hum then creeps outward. Its icy hands squeeze my lungs, quicken my breath. It drains the body of all soft things, empties the bone of marrow, … Continue reading an ode to forgetting
life in jello 