I had a brief moment yesterday when I snapped out of the autopilot mode I spend most of my life in. There was nothing in particular that triggered it. Nothing I'm aware of anyway. I was just driving down a stretch of road I've driven hundreds--probably thousands--of times. It was as if a grey, translucent … Continue reading accidental mindfulness
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joy beyond clouds
The core of my being is a ball of light that vibrates with joy. Much of the time, the dark shadow of depression obscures it, makes me forget that the core exists. At those times, I think the darkness is all I am or ever will be. But there are moments when I'm able to … Continue reading joy beyond clouds
racing toward stardust
I love old films. Everyone seems glamourous and sophisticated even when buffoonery is underfoot. It leaves me feeling star struck. However, being the killjoy my brain can be, my thoughts often take a sharp turn down a dark alley and replace adulation with stark reality. In the films, the actors are young and vibrant, much … Continue reading racing toward stardust
a look in the mirror
I ran late to my dance troupe rehearsal this evening and was impatient to get to the studio because of it. So, while the car in front of me was traveling at a perfectly reasonable rate, I decided to pass. While passing, the vehicle began matching my speed, accelerating right along with me. "What a … Continue reading a look in the mirror
i hated people when the world was nice
A few decades ago, whenever I found myself feeling frustrated about something someone did or said, I tended to declare that "I hate people!" Mainly, I declared this to friends: friends who continued being friends despite my many declarations of hate. (I was a ball of frustration at that time.) I'd forgotten about that hate-spoutin' … Continue reading i hated people when the world was nice
thoughts on singer’s the surrender experiment
A few years ago, I read Michael Singer's book, The Untethered Soul. I loved it so much that when I saw his second book, I didn't hesitate putting it on my reading list. The first book offers up tools for breaking free of a mind that thinks it knows how life should play out. Without … Continue reading thoughts on singer’s the surrender experiment
i never said most of the things i said
"I never said most of the things I said." -Yogi Berra When I feel brave enough and aware enough, I wonder how much of "me" is really me and not the fabrication of me that I cobbled together. It's a fabrication built of social protocol, coping mechanisms, and family history, and it tends to run … Continue reading i never said most of the things i said
life in jello 